If a part of you wants one thing, and another part of you wants something else, you lose your creative powers.
We have the power to create what we want. The trick is to focus, without conflicting thoughts, emotions, or doubt, on that which we are creating. Once conflicting thoughts, emotions, or doubt creep in, we lose our creative power. Although this is true, it does not leave us forsaken.
In silence, we are privy to all there is to know, where as in thought, we only know what has been our experience. Therefore, if you are offering conflicting thoughts, it would be best to give up the driver's seat and open your mind to our all knowing source. Follow inspired calls to action and the path to what you "truly" desire will be open.