Search This Blog

Saturday, August 23, 2014

It takes a village...

Jill, Justin, Alexis, Mia...

"A child can teach an adult three things:

to be happy for no reason,
to always be busy with something,
and to know how to demand with all his might
that which he desires.”
     ~ Paulo Coelho

Depression is a highly intelligent state of being.

While I was reading yet another tribute article about Robin Williams, I came across this article on Elephant Journal. The depth of this explanation of depression is amazing.

"The following talk is adapted from the seminar “Buddhadharma Without Credentials,” and was held at the New York Dharmadhatu in March, 1973.  You can find the whole talk online here

Student: What about depression? All the things you are talking about seem to be energies, emotions of energies, but a state of depression seems to be a negative energy, or absence of energy.

Chögyam Trungpa Rinpoche: Depression is one of the very powerful energies, one of the most common energies that we have. It is energy. Depression is like an oxygen tank which wants to burst, but is still bottled. It is a fantastic bank of energies, much more so than aggression and passion which are kind of developed and then let out. They are in some sense frivolous, whereas depression is the most dignified energy of all.

Student: I’m not quite satisfied. You say it’s a bank of energy. How do you take the money out of the bank or does it just stay in the vault?

CTR: Well, try to relate to the texture of the energy in the depression situation. Depression is not just a blank, it has all kinds of intelligent things happening within it. I mean, basically depression is extraordinarily interesting and a highly intelligent state of being. That is why you are depressed. Depression is an unsatisfied state of mind in which you feel that you have no outlet. So work with the dissatisfaction of that depression. Whatever is in it is extraordinarily powerful. It has all kinds of answers in it, but the answers are hidden. So, in fact I think depression is one of the most powerful of all energies. It is extraordinarily awake energy, although you might feel sleepy.

Student: Is that because it wipes everything away? Could it be a kind of emptiness, a sort of doorway to meditation. I mean, in that kind of depression there is the feeling that nothlng is happening at all.

CTR: Well, that’s it. That’s quite a profound thing. It has its own textures. Let’s say that you feel extraordinarily depressed, and there is no point in doing anything. You seem to be doing the same thing all over again. You give up the whole thing but you can’t. And on the whole, you are extremely depressed and trying to do something is repetitious. And trying not to do something is also irritating. Why should you do something? The whole thing is absolutely meaningless. You feel extremely down. Trying to get into the things that used to inspire you makes more depression, because you used to get off on them and you can’t anymore. That’s very depressing and everything is really ordinary, extremely ordinary and really real, and you don’t really want to do anything with it. It’s an extraordinarily heavy weight pushing down. You begin to experience that your ceilings are much heavier than they used to be, and the floor becomes much heavier than it used to be. There is a whole wall made out of lead, compressing you all over the place; there is no outlet at all. Even the air you breathe is metallic, or lead, or very thick. There is no freshness at all. Everything that depression brings is really, really real and very heavy. And you can’t really get out of it because the idea of getting out of it itself brings further depression, so you are constantly bottled and pushed in that situation and you would like to just purely sit around.

Student: Well, if the whole thing gets worse, then just trying to step out, which seems to be the only answer, is a suicidal approach. Things get very heavy and very slow. Meeting inspiring friends, who used to be inspiring friends, becomes depressing. When you try to put on a record of the music that used to inspire you, it also brings depression. Still nothing ever moves. The whole thing is black, absolute black.

CTR: But, at the same time, you are experiencing tremendous texture, the texture of how the stagnation of samsara works, which is fantastic. You feel the texture of something. That entertainment didn’t work. This entertainment didn’t work. Referring back to the past didn’t work; projecting into the future didn’t work. Everything is made out of texture, so you could experience depression in a very intelligent way. You could relate with it completely, fully. And once you begin to relate with it as texture of some kind, as a real and solid situation which contains tremendous texture, tremendous smell, then depression becomes a beautiful walkway. We can’t discuss it really. We have to actually get into heavy depression and then feel about that.

Student: Unite with the depression.

CTR: Yeah, you become the depression.

Student: What about extreme physical panic or discomfort, the nausea, the headache, thinking you’re going to pass right out, and sometimes the sweat, the cold sweat, the shortness of breath where you can’t catch your breath.

CTR: It seems to be psychosomatic. According to the Buddhist way of viewing physical health, any sickness that comes up is a hundred per cent, if not two hundred, psychosomatic. Always.

Student: So you just keep going back to that point?

CTR: Yeah, back to mind, back to the heart. There is a Zen writing called “Trust in the Heart.” You should read that.

Student: So what you’re saying is that everything that I experience and everything that I think as “I-experience” is really buddhamind, experiencing itself?

CTR: Yeah, without fear. That’s the lion’s roar."

Approaching joy...

"August rain: the best of the summer gone, 
and the new fall not yet born. 
The odd uneven time."
~ Sylvia Plath

Fall is my favorite season. The approaching of fall is my beloved place of knowing anticipation.

Knowing anticipation is the peaceful joy one has when they know something magical is about to happen. For instance, Friday afternoon at work before a long weekend - we are still at work but that peaceful joy comes over us because we know what is coming, and the week before going on vacation - events of the week are insignificant to the anticipation of the vacation.

We could live in that state of knowing anticipation at anytime without knowing what the joyful event is going to be. This is the state of mind that attracts the fulfillment of our desires, and once we realize our desires are always moving towards us, we could live in that beloved state of knowing anticipation.

“Well," said Pooh, "what I like best," 
and then he had to stop and think. Because although eating honey 
was a very good thing to do, 
there was a moment just before you began to eat it 
which was better than when you were, 
but he didn't know what it was called.” 
 ~ A.A. Milne, Winnie-the-Pooh

Friday, August 22, 2014

Quotes of the day... 8/22/14

You’ll always be troubled 
if you pay attention to other people’s egos, 
because you’ll only notice the darkness and shadows. 
     ~Doreen Virtue

Too often we dismiss true guidance with our 
own judgments and interpretations of situations. 
     ~ Doreen Virtue

If your eyes were open to all the beauty in the world, 
you would be overwhelmed with joy. 
     ~ Marianne Williamson 

Thursday, August 21, 2014

Quotes of the day... 8/21/14

Knowledge has to be improved, challenged, 
and increased constantly, or it vanishes. 
     ~ Peter Drucker

The moment you become miserly 
you are closed to the basic phenomenon of life: 
expansion, sharing. 
     ~ Osho

Truth is something 
which can't be told in a few words. 
Those who simplify the universe 
only reduce the expansion of its meaning. 
     ~ Anaïs Nin

Wednesday, August 20, 2014

Quotes of the day... 8/20/14

Perhaps everything terrible is in its deepest being, 
something helpless that wants help from us. 
     ~ Rainer Maria Rilke 

Life is a mirror and will reflect back to the thinker 
what he thinks into it. 
     ~ Ernest Holmes 

I want revenge, but I don't want to screw up my karma.
     ~ Susane Colasant 

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Quotes of the day... 8/19/14

Sometimes, (as often as humanly possible), 
we have to allow a higher power, 
(call it what you want), orchestrate, 
because we are only privy 
to a miniscule amount of information. 

Feelings come and go
like clouds in a windy sky.
Conscious breathing is my anchor.
     ~ Thich Nhat Hanh

Just pausing for 2 or 3 breaths
is a great way to stay present.
This is a work in progress,
a process of uncovering our
natural openness, uncovering
our natural intelligence and warmth. 
     ~ Pema Chodron

Monday, August 18, 2014

Quotes of the day 8/18/14

Your mind behaves exactly as you think it will, 
so expect the best from it, and notice how 
it delivers according to your expectations.
     ~ Doreen Virtue 

It is not so important where one settles down. 
The best thing is to follow your instincts 
without too much reflection. 
     ~ Albert Einstein 

With good intention and inspired action, 
good results follow. 
     ~ Annette Vaillancourt

Sunday, August 17, 2014

Secrets to energize life...

Own less material stuff
     makes us feel lighter

Spend time alone
     increases awareness

Be open minded
     do we really think our opinions are right for all?

Let go of what is weighing us down
     again, lighten the load

Believe in something – faith gives us power
     reduces fear

Be good to your body
     our desires need a vehicle

Experience nature
     free energy

We are what we think
     how do our thoughts make us feel

React less, observe more
     reaction blocks, observation allows